8-16-26

All i ever asked for was the cessation of the “abuse” (if that word is too harsh, i do not know what else to call CHASM). Its like 20 things at this point, sure, but just the VOICES, the injection modulation frequencies that they stream in all devices to communicate. But even more, my voice, because all they do all day is RESPOND TO MY VOICE.

The feedback is always “you are a "(blank)”. “Everyone hates you". “How could you do this.” “you are an asshole, moron, retard.” Threats and explanations. All with the same effect, they are telling me one thing “we are bad people and you are NOTHING.” The learned helplessness and Darvo tactics are pathological. I cannot “tell” them to do anything because that is a violation of our statuses in society. They are immovable. They do not change. Maybe my changeability is an actual oddness because i change everyday, multiple times a day, going from “i hate this” to “oh, this isn’t so bad.” My opinions and judgements of people also change according to how they act or treat me and they have mistreated me, i have done ZERO to them to this day. I am minding my business and its none of there’s what the fuck i do with my time in my room, in the car, in the bathroom, at the park, in the library, at church, at the docks, at the north pole. It does not change!

They are attacking me and committing the actions, while i just sit alone! I talk outload. But guess what, its FREEDOM OF SPEECH. They invade my bedroom for god sakes and are acting like what i say can EVER be worse than that fact. Nothing they say makes sense. They are just lying not only to me but to themselves and….to the entire world.

The exposed me. The humiliated me. I am Fucking Pissed off. I suppress my emotions because i cannot feel or its going to be hate and anger and those emotions lead to what THEY Want. For me to have an angry outburst so i look crazy and go to the hospital. I wont have it anymore. All of them are liars. All of them are doing this. All of them i do not trust and cannot even listen to anymore. Its constant gaslighting while talking the most horrible shit SO I CAN HEAR THEM.

What they say is always “we are the victim of you.” They take NOTHING and make into SOMETHING. I don’t do anything. i have a mouth, but they are spying on me PERIOD. In the bathroom there is a microphone so that when i piss and shit they hear it and me talking. ITs bonkers to say, anything i can do is worse than their fucked actions.

But still, i remain optimistic and tell them and ask them to stop. For 3 years now i have done this almost everyday and they ignore it. Its as if its the only thing they don’t hear or see. And that is a tell. Just like their anger. The fact that they are angriest now at me is only because they know, through privacy invasion, that i am close to finding out not that it is happening (because that is worthless to me especially) but how its being done. I confronted them. I tried other means. This is not the first day, this is the 12’th year. They act like it was yesterday. And they were fine 4 years ago. What the fuck happened, they forgot that they hated me and then recontinued? and Halloween they changed again to suddenly focus on me being a pedophile? How am i a fucking pedophile? i don’t like children! i never had and never will. I never hurt ANYONE and i definitely never did anything with a minor, even seeing them on the internet. They are LIARS.

So i believe they might try to frame me and they are using AI. They made fake videos or images of me. I know what will be real and what will be fake, depending on certain aspects. It is impossible for me to have done something that is impossible for me to do. IT DOESN”T EVEN MAKE SENSE. They treat me kindly and act like saints, even inviting me to family events. Why would they act friendly to me if any of what they say is true? Its because they are lying about everything and gaslighting me.

I have more proof now but i don’t know what the fuck to do. I cannot have privacy enough to get help so i am stuck. They DID THAT TOO. everything is to control me so i don’t expose them. That is the issue.

And if that is the issue, which it logically is, then why the fuck wont they stop! I said stop i don’t care anymore before. Just STOP! They couldn’t do that, so all i do is explore the truth.

My feelings mean nothing to them. The pain i feel means nothing. I heard a joke today about how sad something made me feel….that was Rouge….its a group of five….NO! they are a group they are responsible for this. If one does it they all do it. They all know. They don’t stop themselves. They don’t help me. Alll they do is harm me and pretend they aren’t. Then they defame me most likely claiming i am some bad son or brother or whatever and a maniac when i am normal and polite to EVERYONE. In my privacy, when it is broken, did they expect me to be kind? What kind of nonsense are they talking about. FUCK THEM for ding this to me.

How can they ignore my wounds, act as if im not being tortured, psychologically, emotionally, and even physically? Do they have no sense of empathy? Are they fleeing from a guilty feeling or a guilty verdict? i don’t know anymore. But from MY MY MY perspective, with MY MY MY experiences, they are bad people. That is all i can conclude from what they are doing and saying.