What Lies Beneath

4-3-26

I am now really in a bad situation. I am under attack constantly and have zero room to breathe. They have control over everything and i have proof of library hacking and google workspace account hijacking. I have so much proof but since they cannot stop themselves they make it worse. On top of that, they are threatening my life. Over and over and over again. All i hear is “i will beat…” “you are dead” “You need to be dead”. There is no compromise.

Meanwhile, i am stuck cause i cannot trust anyone including the cops so i reach out to other places like the tipline of the FBI and other emails (which might not have gone anywhere for all i know.) I need help but i am so weak and so tired. They are so persistent and avid in the hatred that i cannot even understand them. Its like they literally have turned into devils but pretend, still, to be my family. I don’t know why. They are gaslighting me.

But, for whatever reason, people are following there lead and in on the gaslighting here and there. The library and dentist. They are teaching me helplessness but i am never giving up the hope because i haven’t done anything wrong. They have abused me and are acting like they are innocent. But they are only “innocent” if they are not found out. The truth will not be kind to them. That is why they hide. I want to expose everything, but hey do not care.

To them, me dying is the most important thing right now. The five or seven or whataver number is just intent on hurting and killing me….Justifying it to me doesn’t matter. My proof also doesn’t matter without verification, but i can’t, cause they thwart my justice. They listen to me and “prove” that they are right, but all they show is that they can manipulate people, that they use all the spied on footage and audio of me to paint me in a bad light only, that they are making up further lies about me to drive home some hatred in the hearts of people to forego any sympathy for a helpless disabled man, and i have zero ways of fighting back, except for passive resistence.

I need to act, but i cannot act. I have no allies. They took away technology, an email and phone is necessary for everything today and so, by taking that away, they have blocked me from help. They know this.

If they had guts they would lay down the bullshit and reveal the truth. I am ready to defend myself, are they? There invisible Bullshit ways of hurting me only have power as long as people are going to ignore the fact that this is not only dangerous to me, but to anyone who is going to be targeted for any reason. I want justice. They want a lynching.

I give up on any form of resolution or mediation. This will have to be investigated by some type of entity for me to be free. FBI or reporters, someone needs to protect me from them long enough for them to be uncovered for the monsters they seem to want to be to me. If they are good people to everyone else, i have not seen any goodness in a long time. Only cruelty and hatred and defaming and labels and insults and just nothing of understanding. I cannot help them. In there eyes, they don’t need help and its a ridiculous idea for me to say that. Just like me saying i love them, i can forgive, i am not angry, i can get over this, i have a future.

Nothing hurts these abusive types of narcissists more than a goodnatured response to their aweful tactics. I don’t care. I might die. I wish i could have had a life. But its tough. And i don’t know maybe nobody cares and everyone hates me (some version i don’t even know, that i no longer am) but i cannot believe this to be true when -

EVERYTHING IS HIDDEN UNDERNEATH.
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