My LIVING Will and testament

I am no longer willing to accept other people’s version of reality and reject my own on the basis of any authority known to man. I reject to play the games of others when i do not understand the rule-book. I no longer accept excuses that are not even related to what i am fighting against.

I have done NOTHING to EVERYONE. I do not deserve to be attacked. I do not deserve to be violated. I do not deserve to be mistreated. I do not deserve to be lied to. I do not deserve to be observed in my privacy. I do not deserve to be recorded against my consent. I do not deserve to be attacked my noises on a constant basis. I do not deserve to be psychologically and emotionally manipulated and tortured for reasons i can’t even know about. I refuse any justification for this amount of pain inflicted upon me. I refuse any opinion period. I cannot change the will of others, but my will, although changeable, will not falter or fold for anyone especially the people who are hurting me.

I accept the nature of this newfound disillusionment and will always strive to live and not die. My life does not belong to ANYONE. I deserve the same respect and dignity of ANYONE. I deserve the same amount of attention when i make a claim about abuses regardless of my past and will not take no for an answer. Do not feed me excuses or distractions when i am saying this brutality cannot go on. I do not accept that RUNNING AWAY like a FUGITIVE is an answer to BULLYING. I am innocent, i do not need to flee the scene.

I should be treated like a normal person when it comes to my living situation. I am NOT A SQUATTER. Do not treat me like i am making YOU SUFFER, while you do nothing else but make me suffer.

If opinions are used in order to treat me like a slave without any single once of compassion or empathy, than do not tell me, or convince me, or challenge me unless to my face. And if it is SO bad, make a case to the legal framework of society to mete out justice and punishment. You are not a judge or jury or executioner, although i have been punished more than i deserve over 10 lifetimes for the little i ever did do even deserve punishment. But do not think you can continue to drag my entire person in the mud without any proof of what you say. Habeus Corpus, SHOW ME THE BODY.

I will defend myself, as any animal or human, if threatened. Why think, provocation and threats against any life would not be a portal to a possible danger that you, yourself have created? I do not wish to die, i do not accept the ideas of “CRAZY”, i am fine with my life in any manner. You can hate me, you can be angry, you can have opinions, you can shout them to yourselves, but you no longer have the right to ATTACK me without expecting me to defend myself in any capacity necessary for my survival. And i am a danger to NO ONE. I never have been a threat. I never will be a threat. There is no proof or history because i am a pacifistic, calm, benign entity. Do not tell me “i am the DANGER” when you have endangered me for years.

If the entire world hates me, I’m fine with that. But never ever tell me what I FEEL or THINK. You have no idea and no power to compel me to have any thoughts or to feel any feelings and to tell ME how i feel is like telling a fire “you are cold.” And i am as changeable as any other aspect or matter in this universe. Nothing is unchangeable, nothing is permanent. Do not tell me I cannot change my mind or change my opinion. I accept what is PREsent as the most real version of anything. I no longer care about the past, it is dead, gone buried, forgotten. Only those who are negative and searching for hate look upon the past. And the further back you go, the less guilty or culpable can you be for that other person. Do not tell me 7, 12, 18 years ago matter today. It does not matter to me, i am over the past. If you cannot get over it, I don’t care. i matters not to me, it should not affect my life.

Do not force yourself into my life if you hate me. That is a contradicting behavior. And then stalk me out of hate. I do not want you in my life if you hate me. Why do you force yourself into my life?

if you do not respect me, at least respect the body of me in every aspect. Do not force yourself on me. Your words into my ears, your opinions on my will, your eyes on my face, your attention on my life. I can only do so much to find some peace and privacy, but i do not accept this invasion any longer.