The DEFENSE but not the DEFENDANT

In short, I am under attack and severe surveillance. I am now perusing the truth and i am willing to expose everything i my life. Every nook and cranny. I don’t care because i don’t have anything to hide anymore. They already exposed the worst parts of me to the person i love the most and have humiliated me for the last 12 years for unprovoked reasons and motives. So i need to now expose them, but this is a difficult task because, even though they are being very careless and plain about the abuse, it is still INVISIBLE, hard to DETECT, impossible to RECORD, and, the cherry on-top, they have already driven me toward having a breakdown and ending up in the hospital and gaslighting me with lies, so that i am also dealing with this false assumption and stigma of Mental Illness being the entirety of my claims. I have had depression and anxiety and maybe even bipolar, but everything to do with delusions, hallucinations, paranoia even….is a fabrication, purposeful and coordinated, to continue being able to control and abuse me. And it worked very well.

But because of that, I am up against PREJUDUCE that isn’t even based on real symptoms. Even than, the actual actions and behaviors of Nemsis is so outrageous and over-the-top, that a plain outpouring of my experiences will sound like i am crazy. It happened multiple times and I even bought it….but not anymore. I have adapted and now reject this outright. And i know it is part of the tactic, they have done this and the consistency is to make it look as real as possible.

But I have the evidence of the truth, enough so at least, to guarantee a further look would be warranted. I have done little to fight back other than gather and talk back to them (they listen through mics ALL DAY), but if need be, this will be vital for a possible trial. So, it is more a “just in case” right now, but it can become a legal case. And, I thought it would be a civil one, but it looks more and more likely that it will have to be a criminal one too….which means a civil suit isn’t even going to be worth anything. I do not even care about money anymore too, so I won’t pursue that.

I hope i am also alive long enough to get past this part of my life or to fight them in court, because i do not know how safe i am. I do not feel safe. But i don’t have anybody or anything or anyone anymore, so i am sort of stuck in this situation for the time being.