Norm’s are a threat to Me

I have tried to convince my family to just STOP the abuse and surveillance….instead they hurt me more and more.

“Everyone will know” is what i hear last night when i come home, have a normal convo with Lion and go upstairs…he said loud too.

Well, at Clifton Library it seemed i heard them say “insane” and clearly were what i call “spoiled”. This is when i go out into the world and get into contact or even near people who LIKE ME because….why not? Im not a bad person. I act normal to people. They like me.

But then, something happens. Maybe the third time, or fifth. But eventually, i can see it, the CHANGE occurs. The got spoiiled by data that SHOULD NOT EVEN EXIST. DATA that was STOLEN from my PRIVACY. And it is used to RUIN MY LIFE FOR 12 years.

I know now for certain, the CORE GROUP of 5 individuals are the only ones who have acces and knowledge of everyhting. Meaning, they know they are full of shit and can’t possibly believe the nonsense i hear through harrassing voices that they use through hidden speakers….

Nowadays they talk directly to me! Its like they revealed themselves finally but still act like this thing is SECRET.

When i say this thing, i mean the abuse they have done to me that i have been investigating and gathering data for 3 years now. They are scared of the EXPOSURE>

I have already been EXPOSED myself…..in the worst way possible…..TWELVE YEARS AGO. i got over it and everyone seems to too….On top of that, i KNOW, because i KNOW what i did and didn’t do, that i did not even commit any crimes, so why should i feel guilt. SHAME, of course. But i have a clear fucking conscience.

Whatever they use or say to the outsiders of the core group of five, they are 100 percent lying. How do i know this? Becasuse they literally lie about every single goddam thing about me when they try to explain through these voices. Thy just reverse everythign and act like the fucking victims. I AM THE VICTIM OF THEIR ABUSE.

They are not going to convince the world that i am a monster without me going “What the fuck are you talking about?”

I had to prove MY CASE AGAINST THEM, with rigerous research and undeniable facts because denial is the weapon they use. They think they can deny it. They think that it will work on everone. it worked on me so many times that i feel like a fuckin idiot now. Because honestly, I don’t think anyone cared about me or my problems (BIPOLAR and DRUG ADDICTION) at all. They just pretend for some reason. People pretend to care about what is polically correct at the moment, so you cannot hate a drug addict or a bipolar person.

So….why not use the worst fucking taboo in the world. In the newspaper. spoken at least one time every 10 minutes on the news. Its in everyones mouth. But….

To be accused of something so horendous is not fun….its not a fun time sort of thing. It is horror. It is fucking heartbreaking.

But one thing about this that may be confusing…..I am not going to suddenly become assexual. I do have sexual feelings. I don’t give a fuck about the accusations because i know they are bullshit so i fucking look at what i want on the internet. They watch me? Why?

Since they do watch me, for twelve years….what is it they have seen? other than grown women….adult women. I am a heterosexual. they are mad at the porn industry?

I will not submit to this idea and i will continue to enjoy pleasure for my sexual health. They will not stop me from looking at women because i like it. I enjoy women. I am a fucking man. What the fuck is wrong with looking at porn or women! They are mad because its ME. But i don’t care, i didn’t do anything to them.

Regardless of EVERYTHING. I do it in the privacy of my bedroom only. I am not publicly doing anything EVER. They made an assumption and they were WRONG.

And they should have been MINDING THEIR FUCKING BUSINESS instead of makng my life into a tv show for NORM’s to enjoy…and laugh at….at critisize….at hate….

I have been betrayed first. No person has been victimized by me. This is ADULT ABUSE MATERIAL. What the hell is wrong with people? Do adults not matter? or is it because i a mentally ill?

I am at a different library today, LITTLE FALLS in new jersey and…..this is just my feeling, my intuition, my psychic ability….who the fuck cares….

Most of the time its just a guess….

But they seem to be watching me, talking about me, taunting me, harassing me, talking as if I’M NOTHING, like i do not exist as human but as a piece of garbage with legs. Nothing direct. Its NEVER direct with Norms……I have failed in the socializing universiy of life. But now i am equipped.

But…They want me dead. It is nothing else. They will not except any other option. I tried convincing. But now, i am faced with such a hard task and an uphill battle.

but the one thing that i just do not care about. I mean….i don’t give a flying fuck what other people think of me or if they are “spoiled”. I do not care about being embarrassed. LOL> i am immune to it! They made me strong in ways i didn’t even realize, but if telling people this and having they hate me silently is all they got, it is weak sauce. If someone acutally hurts me or kills me…..what for? There are monsters, who are literally hurting children and everythign imaginable everywhere, why focus on me? Go fucking get a sign and protest or something because focusing your hate on me is just feeding me breakfast at this point.