2-9-25 SEALED AWAY but it still whispers…
2/9/25 A New Day
So, the season of merriment and gifts and love and etc. was, as expected, not so much filled with those things. They were more filled with...depression...a whole lotta depression. From Turkey Day till this month (February 2025) I was in a catatonic sort of state. Sleeping...not wanting to do anything or even be….
But, I be. And I continue to be. And now, because of the help (or the realization) that I need Mod - is absolute. Maybe its not the Mod itself, but SOMETHING, that I do not get from the doctor or from life. Mod seems to work, with slight problems arising.
OH, to see me come out of the depression is like watching a little groundhog come out of his little den to say “I am well! No more winter!.” Its such a relief. Such a difference. Such a wonder.
Than….its just “I’m better”...and if you wait long enough, it becomes “it’s better than nothing!”
Regardless of the problems with Mod, for now I am back and I am going to spend my time…..hmm
I do not know. For, you see, I have SEALED away the investigatory pursuit into CMS and revealing Nemsis. I just don’t care. And Nemsis kind of stopped bothering me (or so it seemed) for the last couple of weeks.
Today, I have heard V2...”what are you going to do?” “We know” “explitives and insults” “Belittlements.” But I don’t know. I don’t care!
SEALED AWAY FOR THE TIME BEING
So what then? What am I to do if I am not face first in my pillow laying in my own filth!?
I’ll figure it out.
I guess the first thing is to post this on KWWAARDS.COMNew Year Update: 2-9-25
I do not know if my life is being tormented. I do not know if i am being watched. I do not know if i am being monitored. I do not know if my devices are hacked. I do not know if those speakers are talking to me.
I know very little things. But i am sure of one thing. ED. And looking at the internet through Reddit and a web browser without any GUILT. (but why not some decency in my privacy?)
If law enforcement is watching me or i am under Surveillance by a bigger authority, it was all due to Nemsis’s long term plan. I Know For Certain I am NoT or have ever committed any crimes. I am not in “need” of being watched like a child by Nemsis. And if, by some miracle, they got me mixed up in some bullshit….I am not only innocent but have been tormented by this for no reason…
This is just an assumption, because i am in the dark and do not know anything. I just know that this Chromebook that i am using is acting super weird.
The thing is, i only use it for writing and looking at audio files. That is it!
