They are calling me crazy, insane, a lunatic, a maniac, that i have lost it, lost my mind, have become deranged, lost my marbles, gone bananas, gone mad. But whatever they say, no matter what, they cannot take away your freedom, violate your rights as a citizen, as a person, as a human being. I do not care about what they think so I will take the moniker of CRAZY as a word to sum all other ways of saying the same thing.
I am bipolar and have not been acting any more CRAZY than before. You all know I am bipolar and have even been hospitalized for my condition. I am not even hiding the fact that I am CRAZY. For instance, I talk to myself. Yes, to myself! all the fucking time I talk to myself in a variety of ways. It is a dumb taboo that should not exist. But okay, I may sound CRAZY. But guess what; not illegal to talk to yourself. Nope. Not even a little illegal. There is no laws about it. Many people do this and hide it too, but because of any possible shame from the stigma of CRAZY they limit it, so they can go back into the mob of norms. But no matter what, I don’t care, I won’t stop talking to myself. And, it doesn’t hurt anyone because its when in private or done quietly.
I tried to think of other behaviors that may contribute to the CRAZY label but, this one really does a lot of work in getting you into that special club.
(I guess i had other stuff to add here about what makes me crazy but…idk)
No matter what, no matter how CRAZY someone is, they do not forfeit freedom or need to be given any special attention unless they are a danger to themselves, other people, and property (sometimes). Danger means they have to have made clear threats of violence or suicide. A history of violence makes it more likely that they are a danger. BUT….having a mental illness doesn’t automatically make someone dangerous. Also, people aren’t necessarily dangerous just because of their past behavior, strange behavior or because they are bothering other people. There must always be an element of danger.
If someone wants to JAIL a CRAZY person, it is even more difficult (especially if the CRAZY person understands his rights and has done zero wrong). But what if you needed to evict a CRAZY person (for discrimination or…whatever reason), how can you do that?
Well, my state is pretty good with tenants and it will take some effort on any OWNER to evict someone. Tenants have certain rights and cannot be evicted by anyone other than a special civil part officer.
The landlord must first file a landlord tenant lawsuit in the special civil part of the Superior Court and get a judgment for possession from the court before an officer can be directed to evict any residential tenant.
If the landlord does not have a judgment for possession, and attempts to have the tenant evicted, this is an illegal lockout. If the eviction is not carried out by a special civil part officer, this is also an illegal lockout.
Tenants have the right to attend court on the scheduled trial date to defend themselves against a possible eviction. Those cases are heard in the county courthouse where the rental property is located.
The judge may send the parties to a trained neutral settlor on the trial date to try to settle the case.
Of course, since we are CRAZY, things usually don’t seem proper if we are considered “equals” to Norms, so they have a propensity to dehumanize us. But do not forget that you have the same rights as anyone else! (even if you do not work, or do anything else, or are lazy, or talk to yourself, or have no prospects or have no friends or….etc)
Kwwaard is more than just a name. It is a way of being. I take the name for my enterprise. I make nothing. I sell nothing. I do not have a social media presence. I am not an influencer. I am not seeking fame or money. I do not seek.
All I have is my written words. That is all I offer. They are free to read, but pieces of me, so they cannot be taken. Leave them here. And play nice.
My pseudonym is Kwwaard. I am a writer. I will be posting my poetry and writing here. My experiences as a bipolar person, a drug addict, and a human being.
This website will also be used as a sort of repository for pieces of writing. I do not have anything from college and I got rid of so much. What remains is mostly poetry. So I will have to grow my “portfolio” from absolute scratch.
Also this is not “for” anyone specifically. In fact, it is more for myself. By having a website, I can access and show everything I am and write. If I wanted something hidden, I can make it private. Mostly everything is out in the open so it can breath. Whether anyone reads anything matters very little.
This is a blog that i created with zero intent, at least now, for anyone to see. And involves personal writing that may come off as some way, but is just stupid ass fucking Bullshit. I just wanted a backup of myself. An imprint. Something leftover. And this was going to be it.
But…I just cannot stop being sidetracked by potential cyberbullying, harassment, stalking, etc. that seems to be occurring. For real.
This is one of five repositories i have to let go and just write. I use this to post some more finite things, like the poetry. But i intended it to be my blog.
Unfortunately, i have to do EVERYTHING in my POWER to hide what i write from these prying eyes.
So…in a sense, thank you Nemsis….you gave me an audience. I hope you enjoyed reading every fucking word i ever wrote.
Its all just fucked. I am living the Truman Show. Nemsis has created a form of entertainment involved around watching my life and harasing me and hurting me and watching me and…telling me how to kill myself….I don’t know….what do i say?