Here is the rundown about….what it is i guess….i don’t know. I took it down. But i dont care, so i put it back with some redacted info. fuck it and my life

Basically, I have been under constant unconsented and unwanted surveillance for a very long time now.  It is hidden and VERY secret, to the point of being almost invisible.  It took me 2 years of investigating this, for my own personal health more than anything.  This was mostly maintained by a façade of lies and very strong gaslighting, along with the medical community denying my claims, not because it was "impossible delusions" but it "Didn't make sense to them that people would do this."  Well, for almost 8 years of my life, I believed it as much as I could.... but really in my heart it was evident.  And I'm sure you will understand how real this is since you are the ones who deal with Cybercrimes.

Who are the ones doing this to me?  Well, my family mostly and in-laws.  I also do not know exactly who the very good and unethical hacker they are using is, but I know they exist because they are all very much incapable of setting this stuff up and it is VERY sophisticated.  I had to learn so much knowledge about things I didn't have prior interests in, like how sound works, acoustics, psychoacoustics, hacking, cybersecurity etc., in order to be able to, not only find the proof I needed but also to be able to explain how it works.  I have theories about who: 1; Pete my brother-in-law 2; old coworkers specifically Sean, the IT admin at Thea Enterprises 3; a possible acquaintance or old coworker of my father 4; its just a person that was hired to do this.

Needless to say, this is a very very bizarre case and might even be unprecedented. 

I love my family, I really do, but they have pushed me so far and have blocked all my attempts to find any sort of privacy so that I could get help.  Right now, I am at the library in Wayne, NJ and I am almost certain they have hacked this computer....and are watching me.  I will upload possible evidence of this from, data I got from Browserleaks, but this is just one thing.... among hundreds....

For instance, in order to be able to get to this computer (if they have.... but I know for sure have done in the past), they had to stalk me driving in my car, knowing the destination, and then.... working the magic.  In this case, it is a place I visit now almost exclusively, so it was already probably violated.  For all I know, they hacked the entire network just for me....it sounds ridiculous, but I only care if it’s true, not what sounds more likely.

Either they did the thing I think they did which is contacted the library staff, defamed and discredited me with lies and accusations of a specific horrendous kind which isn't true: I am willing to bet my life on defending against it.  Through that, they got access by directly getting it from them or by, basically, social engineering their way into it.  Other possibility is they corrupted one of my many many portable drives with something and I was unaware.

Sorry for spending too much time on just that, without really explaining the fullness of the situation.  They have been watching me on a hidden camera (I believe I might have found it, but it literally is just a hole.... but this shit is so sophisticated and I didn't have the time), listening to me on some hidden mic device, and using speakers to sonically blast me with just horrible words.... And that is just my room.  I believe it extends throughout the house and....I really have no capacity to know everything but just through my observations and deduction, they seem to have a lock on me in most places.

Which includes the bathroom.  They have absolutely strong mics, cause they can hear me whisper very low.  And, it may not be permanent, but they have recorded video while I was in there at some point in the past.

 By the way, most of what I know to fill in gaps comes directly from them speaking to me or about me. I’ll explain more when I get to the “voices.”

And then the phone....

My phone is basically the perfect, most versatile surveillance device imaginable. And everyone has one!  I recently got undeniable proof it has had CAs installed onto it, which is just the base for the other stuff, really.  I have plenty of data to be analyzed, over about 2 years of time.  But they had full access to what I see.... if that isn't bad enough, full access to the cam (which I finally learned to block...forever), full access to the mic, and, this is where I am usually lose any parties belief, they have access to the speakers. I heard CA violations are taken seriously by you because I really am putting myself inside a target-sight by doing this.

So, for about 12 years now, after a very bad mental breakdown, I came back to my parents’ house where I live and started to hear voices.  I never heard voices before that point, The first time was actually the day they called the ambulance when I thought my sister had come over.  I was in such a panic-stricken state because I had suddenly come to (what I would be told and am continued to be called) "delusion", that I had been surveilled secretly by my coworkers, which included my brother-in-law and his brother.  "paranoid" they called me.  But that was what set off my mental breakdown, the belief that my privacy had been stripped and I was laid bare for all to see.... It ended up actually being true so I am not paranoid nor delusional. I was right.

But do I hear voices?  Well, I heard her that day, and it drove me crazy.  She sounded as if she was downstairs, or outside my window.  But I went to look and nothing.  Back and forth.  Finally, I thought it had to be a speaker.... long story short, I lost it, tried to run away, and they called the cops to take me away. three weeks in a mental ward, a shiny new (false) diagnoses of schizo-type bipolar, and new pills.

So....I started to hear voices.   Not my voice.  Not a voice in my head.  Not even a voice that would make sense for me to imagine.  I heard THEM.  But they just talked very low like, somewhere...in the walls?  the floor? But from the last three years of careful observation, journaling everything, and using reasoning, it started to become clearer and clearer that these were ALL just them....

I had to learn from the ground up, so I always had to have the base be "is this possible?"  From there, you go up until you hit a point.  So, it was definitely possible.  They probably just had a single speaker in the wall at first, but now I am not even giving them any sort of room for doubt.  My entire bed seems to have an electric field around it and I do think multiple, flat, skinny speakers are inside those walls.

But that is not even the proof!  I don’t have to prove every singe thing, correct? Logic can solve the missing variables. So, in the last three years, things started to change.  First, I started to notice that I was hearing them, the same voices, while I used my phone with headphones on.  Underneath the noise of whatever, they were injecting audio and masking it or ducking it using some tool.  Mind you, not loud at all, but because of genetics or maybe because of the constancy of these small voices harassing me on an almost daily basis, I have really good hearing.  To my detriment, it seems. 

The term they use is "cocktail party effect."  Basically, humans have the ability to pick up on voices even underneath a cacophony of sound and even understand it, sometimes.  I have a whole paper on how hearing works that I wrote.   Contrary to what the leading opinion is, I find that I hear these voices BETTER when it’s against some sort of other sound.  It actually makes these voices JUMP out at me.

Anyway, it took a long time to figure this thing out.  First, I tried recording the voices, but two things made this not work so well the first is my equipment sucks and the second (which actually makes this WHOLE investigation a maze with trapdoors) they know if I am attempting to get a recording because they are watching me at the same time.  This....well obviously it was very difficult for me to deal with this...

The recordings were never clear enough and I really didn't feel like listening to these recordings, trying to find a sonic needle in a haystack of waves.  It is very unpleasant.  I have SO many files still, but they might not even be necessary.

Another thing happened, this time more recently.  Well, actually, it coincided directly with getting a new Optimum Online cable box, which now served as, what I learned is called, an IOT.  Oh boy.... IOT’s really scare me now.... a lot of things do.  So, just like with the phone, I started to hear the v's (I shorten voices to v and actually use the naming scheme of V1, v2, v3, v4 for the main cast) coming from inside the TV.  But you know what I mean, inside the sound that whatever was on was producing.  just like my phone.

I finally figured out enough to deduce a sort of schema of how it works.  With the help of at least 5 different AI's (I have all of those conversations), I got actual confirmation that audio injection was occurring.  The best example I have is a log for something called Agora.  God knows how I find it on my phone, but it basically has the details on what they are doing to the audio.

Along with that and learning about Webrtc, it became clear they were using browser vulnerabilities to do this.  The same tech that is used for people to ZOOM and have medical appointments (and I’ve had those.... just to throw in a possible HIPPA violation in) has been used to make me think I am having auditory hallucinations.  And it is DEVIOUS.  That, combined with analyzing traffic I collected using Wireshark or another type of app, I even found out that they were obfuscating everything by using HTTPS protocol for sneaking some voices past without anyone knowing.  How could they?  It took me a lot of time and effort and help from AI to figure this out, but I believe I have enough proof to show that this is indeed what is happening.    Same thing on my cable box.   And any other thing that they touch, literally. 

So, I believe, the “hacker” created a server, cloud storage, and website with a simple GUI and a password protection. There, they can view me and also, use their phones, or whatever has a browser and mic, to talk into speakers inside my room. It has to be SIMPLE, because people who have very little computer skills can use it. It also has to be AVAILABLE. Using their own phones seemed like it would be a bad idea to me, cause it would obviously have a trace. No need for an APP either. Webrtc really blew the door open for me to come to this conclusion. It is probably set up to erase all traces once you exit or something. It might even be AWS, Firebase, or Cloudflare.

I do not know but it is the best theory I have and it fits perfectly with all that I know. Please, do not think it is the imagination of a wild man. If you or anyone can find this, it would validate so much of my very existence. I have spent more than a decade suffering for things I did in my privacy and I don’t deserve it! So much pain. Just, if anything, look into this.

I have three other burner phones that also probably have evidence of hacking.  Also, a Chromebook.  All these things I bought with my own money....in order to try to get some privacy.... along with so many other things over the years, but this wasn't the method I had to employ.  The ONLY method that could work is EXPOSING the abuser.

Look, I have so much evidence.  I have my writings (includes my journals, my website kwwaard.com, stuff I have written on Word, and even notes I took on these infected phones), I have a plethora of data (including pictures, logs, traffic captures, etc.), I have the physical devices themselves (1 main phone, 3 burner type of ok phones, a Chromebook, the cable box), AI’s of several types evaluation of data with actual confirmations and suggestions to go to the police immediately…..I have so much yet lack the most important thing, another person’s validation. 

All the witnesses to this are also accomplices.  I fear, beyond the main group of about six, many many people are in some way guilty of viewing stuff, at least. My theory, it’s all run on a server and, according to the ADMINs permissions, people use a website.  And many many people who would easily divulge the truth if pressed by an officer. 

My therapist, Barbara Altar, is the only person I have fully talked about this from the time of serious doubt into "I'm 100 percent sure and I have good evidence."  The problem is.... she still does not believe its "real" to the extent I am saying it is. It’s not about the technology even, which she is honest about not understanding on even a basic level, but that she "doesn't think your family or anyone would do this to you."  Just another of a series of statements that deflect and undermine my very experience of reality.

I really thought, for a long time, she was a part of the conspiracy, but now I just think she is never going to be convinced until I finally expose it. On top of that, I sort have stopped buying the Psychology drip. The system seems to have failed me. I wonder who else it failed? Who else has suffered the same thing but just didn’t have it in them to do what i did?

Please, I don’t even want charges bought up or any punishment, I'm not looking for vengeance or some retribution. Not even monetary….but I do deserve it. I just need someone to confirm this and validate my entire existence. It has to be someone who knows these things and can confirm them.  

Post Script

This has been changed on 11/10/25

After a manic episode, drug induced, I had a moment of clarity. My whole soul went in a state of shock and I had become, in Video Game terminology, stun-locked. I will not repeat what happened, but i gave them the chance to change. To stop. I really did. But without drugs in my system, and keeping away from eating, i felt….fine. I was in fear of being murdered or worse, even if it was all in my head. But the thing is….a week of lucidity has shown it is not in my head, that they just do not care and hate me for this silly ass reason no matter how insignificant, and now….at their possible expense. I mean, i was ready to mediate this….and have all this investigatory law stuff dropped. But it seems, they do not care about MY OPINION for some reason, even when I am telling them “hey, stop it. You might actually get into some real trouble hear. i know you hear me because you are talking about it, but why cannot you listen to me!!!!”

The answer i get is “asshole”, “he is insane”, “rapist”, “retard”, “homo”, and worse. They even try to have some sort of discussion through SPEAKING THROUGH SPEAKERS IN THE WALL IN MY BEDROOM WHEN I WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE!

Basically, I just cannot care about these people any longer and, even though i want mediation and peaceful resolution, they do not. What do they say about pride? Before the fall….

I am trying to find a lawyer now, but i haven’t yet. I fear the worst….

(no matter what happens, i love you all. But my conscious is as clear as fresh raindrops. I do not feel any pain anymore. If this was a game, i had quit it a long time ago. But you win, because you have to win even if you lose. I realize now that i am truly alone. An alien among people. I cannot relate to these people and i fear nobody will ever understand me. But, i STILL and always- WANT TO LIVE.)